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This is severely off point, but I’ve had an inkling to do this for some time now and just felt someone out there might need to see this today.
So, I’ve been mostly off here for an amount of time now mainly due to some issues I’ve been dealing with IRL. A big issue for me, of late, has been depression coupled with frequent anxiety and depleted self-esteem stemming from a lot of things.
While I tried my best to hide this while I was active on here, seeing that it would’ve made me into an easy target, I would be lying if I didn’t say that my experience on Gold Derby did contribute somewhat to the issues I faced. Again, somewhat. Only, at best, 10%.
Why? Well, if you’ve been on here long enough, this shouldn’t come as too much of a surprise. If you haven’t, well, basically, I have said a lot of things that people vehemently disagreed with. I have also made a lot of comments that I feel were misinterpreted too. And to be completely honest, it all made me feel completely worthless.
I felt worthless because, in real life, I have almost no means of talking about my true interests. The Grammys, and music in general, are so important to me, you cannot imagine. I felt like I had stumbled upon a gold mine when I discovered Gold Derby.
So, when I would get hate from my posts, I would think “Even people I have common interests with wouldn’t want me around.” And it’s an almost anonymous platform, so, people are just being their truest selves, which made me all the more convinced that I am fundamentally problematic and unlikable.
So, yeah, there was that. I remember, sometimes, crying heavily after reading all the hate some of my posts would get. I also remember feeling terribly alone with no one to share my love of music or even anything with. Absolutely no one.
So, I decided, with time, to stay off here more and more and focus on work. And it kind of helped. I say “kind of” because while it did help me heal from the sadness I got from all the hate my posts got, I felt completely stranded and lonely as ever. It also goes without mention that I’ve now informally killed my love for discussing music.
Now, there were certainly good times I had on here. But, after much self-analysis, I realized that that fear of being misunderstood or, once again, having to “tough things out” overrode the good memories.
I also want to make it clear that I do not hold any grudges towards the people on here nor do I hereby make a plea for people to “change their tone” or “be more sensitive.” I am only sharing my experience from using this site.
The point of this post: Someone out there might be going through something similar. I debated for the longest time whether or not to post this, but if you’re reading this, I pulled through. I’m sure my case was unique, I’m unique in a lot of ways I don’t even like. But if it wasn’t, well, here’s your “newsflash” that it’s not just you.
I hope this helps whoever needs it in some way.
ReplyI’m sorry but if Charli missed nominations with more than one critical acclaim juggernaut in the past, where there were committees, I really don’t see Crash happening anywhere. It’s not like the album is significantly popular or anything of the sort right now.
I’m starting my campaign for MOTOMAMI and Crash on AOTY
MOTOMAMI is possible. Crash is almost certainly not getting in.
Even when an indie or not-so-popular release is undeniable, like Fetch the Bolt Cutters, it’s never a given.
Sorry, how hasn’t “Something in the Way” charted already?
I don’t know what the talk on this forum has been like for the past few months, but boy would I love to see “We Don’t Talk About Bruno” take home at least Best Pop Duo/Group Performance.
Gurl, the queen finally got her Oscar nomination.
What would it take for movie awards to go genderless too?
ReplyThe question here is why are these “I hate the Grammys so much” superstars still submitting??????? Look, the Weeknd didn’t hesitate a second. It was “DO NOT DO THIS” and POOF.
Drake has continued this “they’re trash” act since “Hotline Bling” and conveniently remembered to pull out when he realized he was up against Kanye in both fields.
Just stop submitting your tasteless music and give way for possibly BETTER acts. PLEASE. It’s become annoying giving recognition to people who do NOT want it.
It’s the audacity to nominate “Bad Habits” in Song of the Year for me. Everything else, I’m either indifferent about or pleased with.
Aya Nakamura in Best New Artist
“Say Her Name (Hell You Talmbout)” in R&B Performance
ReplyYes! It should’ve went to Traditional R&B!!
So should’ve “Leave the Door Open.”
ReplyNoticed Justin Bieber actually submitted in R&B. I’m old enough to remember when I was called “dElUsIoNaL” for predicting the possibility.
ReplySame, apparently it became the 33rd biggest hit on the Billboard All Time Chart today too surpassing “Despacito”.
Will Billboard have a Faith-Hill-type situation as with what happened in the year 2000 where the biggest hit didn’t hit #1? I’m here for it.
Chemtrails over the Country Club most likely is not happening anywhere but “Chemtrails over the Country Club” might just happen in maybe one category.
